Grief, sad can't help any your situation, please stop it.
You already quiet that job,it's right.but go find another one job, must day time job is.
between you looking for now job,you need to contact her too, let her know, you are care that what she said, you are love her so much, you can't without her.
"LOVE" needs to action on it, not just "SAY" it only.